Rest in Paradise to everyone I loved who I lost to addiction.

A random dream about his 5th grade teacher not liking him resulted in a 5-day panic attack starting the minute his eyes opened and lasting until the second he fell asleep.

I am playing a constant game of teeter totter on what I can only explain as my seesaw of life. As much as my life is still moving in a constant forward direction, I am getting there in the most inconvenient way possible.

Because all of what I feel like I NEED, I need it from myself.

So, put yourself in my shoes for a minute. Not until I was an adult, and I could form my own sense of security and safety, was I able to access step three of the pyramid.

Unfortunately, equal responsibility doesn’t happen very often in co-parenting relationships.

At some point I really took a step back and analyzed my own addiction, the lies I told, the things I would do to convince people I wasn’t an addict, the lengths I would go to in order to make it look like I was clean.

I miss the life I lived before. Not waking up sick, not chasing my next high, and not dancing for dope. But what I do miss sometimes is the not being worried about anything.

Sometimes I just wish peace was something I could enjoy instead of being something I feared.

Imagine waking up every day and reliving the worst day of your life over and over and over again. This is what happens when I think about people drinking in front of my kids.

The attachment theory can explain why you are the fixer.

Recognize your strength and give yourself credit for it!

Grief is not linear. What works for you does not work for everyone. Sometimes missing someone is silence is what needs to be done and that’s okay.

I am learning through my own trauma, breaking cycles and trying to be better for them.

Within two weeks, I had gone from wanting to get clean to not even remembering the last time I thought about getting clean.

Have you ever felt like someone was dead because of you? Ever wondered if you made one decision differently that person would still be alive? Worried that you are the cause of all of the bad things that happened to someone?

Let’s learn the difference between the relationships we’ve shared to better understand why we feel the way we do.

Co-dependency may be a toxic trait to have, but learn how it saved my life!

Protecting yourself sounds like a great concept, until you spend so long protecting yourself that you don’t know how to feel safe anymore

Learning that making people happy isn’t always healthy.